Sorry if this is kind of random and incoherent, but I had a realization, so I figured why not post about it. It’s a positive thing so I hope it’s relatable to others here. Near the end there’s some mention of how I experienced religious trauma, so TW if you’re not in a good place right now.
Today I was just chilling at home and I watched a YouTube video of Mickey Atkins (who’s a therapist and uploads about mental health) reacting to another video of Girl Defined spewing their typical, toxic tradwife nonsense. And if you’re lucky enough to have never heard of GD, “toxic” is really an understatement, all these fundie chicks talk about is how you shouldn’t have your own identity but instead give yourself up to God, how self-compassion is selfish, sexuality is shameful, etc. I think Mickey has been an atheist all her life, but her horrified expressions and detailed professional criticisms of the doctrines really said it all. She doesn’t just cover religion, I recommend checking her channel out.
I’ve renounced my faith for about six months now (yay) and I’m honestly in a good place. No one’s ever going to be perfect, but it’s the happiest I’ve been in a while, and I’d say I’m done with actively deconstructing Christianity. Am I going to have new experiences and continue passively deconstructing it? I’m sure I will. But the point is, I’m now focused on what’s next for me. So I didn’t watch this video for the purpose of deconstruction, but a curiosity of how a therapist breaks things down because I’m interested in maybe becoming a therapist too. I loved what Mickey had to say, but I think it hit a little too close to home, having to hear the brainwashed fundies robotically repeat these harmful messages that used to plague my mind. I couldn’t stand them presenting it innocently like “oh this is just my opinion!” and not mentioning all the emotional manipulation it entails, or how children are indoctrinated into this being objective truth.
Nothing wrong with Mickey’s video btw, I love that her insights could benefit some people, but the source content bothered me. GD was insufferable and just reminded me of my life’s lowest point, so I only got halfway through the video. I turned it off.
Then it hit me, I turned it off. I can do that now.
I can turn it off, and that’s a huge improvement from last summer, where such a thing would send me into an anxious obsessive spiral, to the point I couldn’t sleep sometimes, where I’d be crying on the drive to work, back when my mind took these things way too seriously. With the ever looming threat of eternal fire, I’d panic to do the mental gymnastics and rationalize that the Bible doesn’t contain the horrible ideas that it does. I’d find my own sense of peace, and then work backwards to find verses and make the religion fit. This wasn’t done maliciously or even consciously half the time, and I think every religious person does it to some degree. But when I (often) wasn’t successful at it, I’d have to assume that “God” is perfect, therefore I’m the problem. I wasn’t “allowed” to be mad at God which only made things worse. I constantly felt broken and that I was wrong for wanting to be myself, to be happy, and approach my life practically rather than by black and white definitions in an ancient book. The distress was internal and paralyzing. I couldn’t control my own thoughts.
How I came to be an atheist is a complicated matter that could be it’s own post. I’ll spare you the transition period, but where I am now is like night and day difference.
Now, I become distressed by religion, I recognize that it’s external. I can simply turn it off, and almost immediately feel fine again. I can just go about my day like anyone else. When Mickey started laughing at them, saying “Wow you simp for an imaginary man”, I truly felt that. That’s really what it is when you remove the fear tactics. It’s just not relevant to me anymore, it’s no longer my life. My current life, my authentic, science-backed, emotionally stable worldview is wide, and sees Christianity the same way I’ve always seen other religions, just as a bizarre cultural phenomenon. A sad example of the many folleys of the human mind.
When I say I laughed, I mean I laughed at the absurdity of Christianity, not so much at the women themselves. If anything, I pity them. That may sound condescending, but I truly mean it. It’s heartbreaking to look back and see people waste the one life they have trapped in this ideology. You don’t see how miserable you were until you make it over the fence. Maybe I’m just projecting my own experience, but I don’t believe that any extremist Christian, deep down, is happy. They’re just gaslighted into thinking that they’re “supposed” to be, but it’s only thinly veiled smugness. It’s a vicious cycle of people turning back to religion for “solutions” to problems they don’t realize were created by religion in the first place. Like when they talked about “worldly desires” not filling the void like Jesus does, do they realize that most people don’t think they deserve to burn for existing as a human? That void is self inflicted, and knowing much religion harps on “you don’t believe hard enough”, I doubt it’s actually filled as much as they claim it is. It’s a lot of exhausting mental and emotional work, it’s a whole lot of lying to yourself. I know it’s easy to hate on these people, maybe I’m too kind. But I’ve been there before. Not justifying it at all, but any fundie who hurts others with their faith is surely hurting themselves. I wish I could help but you can’t make a horse drink. I see these people now, and even though we all have flaws, I feel a mixture of luck and relief when I sincerely think to myself, “God damn, I’m just so glad I’m not you.”
Thanks to anyone who read all this, I didn’t intend for it to be so long. Best of luck on your individual healing journey.
TL;DR: I watched a video of a therapist criticizing Christian fundies, found it a bit triggering so I turned it off. I reflected on how dogma doesn’t control my mind like to used to, and just ramble on about how religion harms people.
This post isn’t about the video itself but I’ll link it if anyone asks. :)
Thanks

Based in England, UK.
On the 14th December 2022, I put down a £200 deposit on a £1,995 1993 MK5b ford escort 1.6i 16v LX with the seller, an LTD (limited) trader (not private), 17 days later, on the 31st December 2022, i paid the full price for the vehicle £1,795. I barely used the car in the 3 months and 25 days i have owned it, and i do not use it for work commute.
The advert on Autotrader for the car does not state anything wrong with the car, it only states:
"Lovely and increasingly rare Escort MK5b 1.6i 16v LX 5dr... Outstanding history file with comprehensive documentation back to original order form."
the car had 101,720 miles on it, i put 166 miles on it after purchase on the 31st December, 101,886 miles.

The story:

When i went to look at the car which is the same day i put a deposit down, i did not inspect the car (my mistake), the paintwork of the car was exceptional, but i did not notice anything obvious just glancing at the car. I asked the seller if it starts up, he tried to start it, nothing, then he got an old used diesel battery, put it in the car, didn't start, so he got 4 more diesel batteries, hooked them up via jump leads to the just replaced diesel battery in the car, tried to start it, it started BUT i noticed smoke coming out of the battery terminals and told him "why is there smoke coming out of the battery terminals" to which he brushed off and said "It'll be fine".
After putting the deposit down after him attempting to start the car, he said he'd get an MOT and service done on it within a few days before i purchase the car in full (1.7k). When i picked up and paid the 1.7k for the car on 31st December, he handed us the service history, both keys and the relevant 90s ford service/radio guide books. I go to drive the car, not even a 30 second walk from his garage place of business, the car stalls. I walk back to him as car will not start, he comes out and jumps the car and offers to drive me back home in the purchased car with his son following behind us with his son in the sons own car, i agree. As we drive back i ask why he's revving the car on each gear change, he said "I'm keeping the revs above 1500rpm to make the alternator charge the battery". I arrive home in the car just fine, he parks it on my driveway and gets in his sons car and drives off.
I leave the car for a week or 2, then i take my father out on a short 15 miles or so drive, car starts fine, SEEMS to work OK except the smell of a burning clutch despite being easy on the clutch with no over-revving one time in the short drive, i also notice the vibrations and poor acceleration, brakes being terrible, sloppy gearbox, rolling back with the handbrake on. Once i take it back home, over the course of the next month and a half i randomly once every 2 weeks go out and start the car, turn it off and on, within that month and a half, 3 times i go around the block in the car (no more than 1 mile each time). After the month and a half, i get concerned at the noticed problems which are horrendous, but no different from when i took my father out. I believe at the time, this is just how a 90s car, especially a ford escort drives as i had never driven one or been in one.
I go to a friends house, roughly 20 miles, again, i notice the same problems wrong with it as before when i went out in it with my father, except this time, the suspension also being very dreamy/light.
I go out one morning to start the car, it does not start. I pop the engine bay and notice oil is low, i look under the car, it's got a leak out of the oil sump.... i also suspect at this point one of the 4 cylinders is dead, i also noticed cracked/illegally worn tyres on all sides, corroded/rusted front brake discs, rusted battery bay, pedals footwell rusted (but with a new bolt/washer in the brake pedal), a blown number 9 radiator fan fuse, possibly stretched or worn throttle/clutch/handbrake/footbrake cables, parting seat backing on passengedriver seats, the actual seat where you sit on both passenger & drivers seat cover completely ripped and now putting orange dust everywhere, a broken built in clock, the carpet covering for the rear brake lights in the boot of the car, rusted brake lines, rusted wishbone joints, brake calipers. And lastly, i double check the cars tax, because i paid tax, and the tax expires December 1st, 2023 when that is not when i taxed it in December on the 31st 2022, i check paid car plate checking site "Un-named-car-checking-site-dot-com" and it lists 6 owners, him being the 6th owner, except for, traders are NOT listed as owners anywhere officially. This 6th owner, which is him purchased the vehicle on 14/05/22, and has held ownership for the car as of today, 9 months and 27 days, whereas i should technically be the 6th owner as he is a trader, and there is no 7th owner regardless which would ALSO be me if the trader bought the vehicle under his personal name and not the company name, but the purchase forms state that his company owns and is selling the vehicle.
At this stage, frustrated, i book an appointment for a pre-mot, visual check, and roadworthy/safety check at TC harrisons, ford, on the 21st march 2023 with the intention of getting the paperwork of things wrong with the car from ford, going back to the trader, giving him copies of the official papers from ford and under the consumer act 2015, telling him to repair the car. As if i say X thing is wrong with the car, i understand it is his duty within 6 months of purchase to prove the car when sold and currently had/has no faults, and if found, to repair them. And if i have that paper from ford, he can't just say the car is fine if i say the car is bad because then it's word vs word and he's the trader. I also am currently compiling screenshots of the misleading advert he put up to confront him with.
After booking the appointment, i take out the old battery, charge it up for 2 days, put it back in the car, no bueno, doesn't start. I get a relatives car next to mine, jump my car off of theirs and the car starts but dies if i do not keep the car above 1500rpm, at 2000rpm. The car is now only just running. So i take the opportunity to check out that dead cylinder and the oil. I fill up the oil, car when running is leaking oil faster than if turned off out of the oil sump plug and potentially an oil sump bolt. I also use an old trick to diagnose which cylinder is dead, engine running, i pull off the HT leads/spark plug wire off of cylinder 1's spark plug, i notice the electricity arcing to the spark and can hear the clicking sound, also i notice the engine runs rough when pulling the lead off of the spark plug. I can't access 2 and 3 as they're blocked by an air hose, so i go to cylinder 4, pull the leads off of spark, then engine does NOT change idle BUT i see electricity arcing to the spark and hear the click, BINGO, the vibrations, poor acceleration is due to a dead 4th cylinder. Then the car 10 minutes after being turned on (still running) immediately seizes with a check oil light on the dash, i check oil and oil level is still the same as how much i put in, in between max and min, barely any leak on the floor. I turn the car off and leave it for a day as the appointment was tomorrow, the 21st. (This was NOT related to the spark plug)
I book the TCH appointment in for the 21st, on the 21st, i install a NEW battery and fill up the oil. After putting in the new battery and oil, the car fires straight up and i notice it's actually not vibrating nearly as much, running smoother, and the engine is not moving as much, BINGO, the dead 4th cylinder was due to the bad used battery the trader put in the car (not spark although spark was terrible) and is also the one he must of fried when smoke was coming from terminals (which i think might've also blown the number 9 radiator fan fuse). I take out the 4th spark plug, and notice it's the incorrect plug for the car, it's for a ford fiesta, looks old, yellowed, carbon/oil fouled, beige/white (heat damage) on the spark and that the gap on the plug is too much for what the escort's spark plugs require. the previous day, the car seizing with a check oil light on is irrelevant because when it did, the 4th cylinder wasn't actually firing yet so the damage on spark is not due to the previous day. (unsure of what the current other cylinders' spark plugs are in the car). Meanwhile, while all of this is going on, i go out and buy new sparks, oil, coolant, tools to work on the car which cost a fortune.
Anyways, on the 21st i installed the new battery and oil, oil leak was bad but not a constant stream of oil that'd be dangerous to other road users, i get in the car, there's no oil light anymore, reverse it out my driveway, everything is working fine, until, 20 seconds down the road it feels like the clutch is slipping while stopped at a T junction (it wasn't the clutch), the car drops rpms a bit but brings itself back up quickly, i notice nothing further, 10 seconds from the T junction as i am about to enter a dangerously fast main road, the car cuts out/stalls and the engine immediately seizes and i mean no classic engine drop in rpm when turned off and the vibrational feel, i mean like IMMEDIATELY SEIZED AND STOPPED. At this point I'm already 2 hours late for the TCH appointment, i also notice for half a second thick white smoke out the exhaust, a check oil light on the dash. I do not turn the car back on, i check oil while being an obstruction at the 2nd T junction to enter the dangerously fast main road, it has enough oil, i check coolant, the car ate the coolant, which was at the max mark no more than 3 minutes earlier when i left my driveway. I push the car all the way back to my house, wait an hour for the car to be cold, start it one more time for 8 seconds to which it instantly starts, has slightly above the min mark of coolant in, the engine bay then starts smoking, the engine bay is also extremely hot in only 8 seconds of a cold start, i turn the vehicle off immediately. I suspect the head gasket out of nowhere decided to blow up, due to heat, coolant eating, exhaust smoke, engine bay smoke. BUT in driving the car all the other times, i did not notice any head gasket-like symptoms, yet for the car to suddenly blow a (suspected) head gasket like that and THAT severely and quickly, it had to be extremely bad from purchase, considering all the other problems with the car from purchase.
The day after, 22nd, i get the car recovered to ford, book a new appointment for early next week from now (25/03/23) and I'm hoping they'll in the invoice actually give me the technical breakdown of things wrong with the car, although apparently, they may NOT test the head gasket, only say "engine overheating" due to the checks they're performing potentially not including the head gasket. I also noticed the night prior, the night of the 21st, the trader guy (owner of the company with his wife) STILL did not transfer ownership of the car as it was still under his personal name and/or the company name, a whole 3 months and 21 days later. He gave me a new keepers slip, but did not tell me to do anything with it, he said he sent off the v5c to dvla when i purchased the car (31/12/22) which is also when i paid £295 tax on the car which never got added because i never owned the car (for some reason). I have an insurance policy on the car, and despite being allowed to be insured on a vehicle with another registered owner, i told my insurance i was the owner as i believed i was, making my insurance invalid but i only found that out AFTER recovering the car to TCH on the 22nd, day after the appointment (close call). I'm sure that would of meant i was driving with no insurance and the car would of been seized and sent back to the company, that's a massive fine and points.
After the car was recovered to TCH which was costly!!!, i went to the traders garage/business, recorded the conversation via phone voice recorder so i had records and he couldn't claim intimidation, told him i had not received the logbook/v5c 3 months and 22 days later after he said he sent them when i purchased the car. He said that DVLA must of lost it, or it got lost in the post but then also said he will send them again. I'm no genius, but HOW CAN HE SEND THEM AGAIN IF HE ALREADY SENT THEM AND THEY GOT LOST?!??!??? He also said he owns the car in trade and that they don't get a logbook, and that he said that "they" (dvla) "take 8-10 weeks to send a logbook", it's been 3 months and 25 days. He said he'd call me tomorrow (23/03/23) in the evening but did not specify when, when asked. He did call, but i missed his call. I also noticed the tyres on the car are 175 when they're supposed to be 185s and the "extensive" service history was actually missing quite a lot, including the tyre change, recent repairs/replacements, and a few owners.
END
As i understand it, if i take copies of the official ford documents about things noticed on my car when i receive them next week to the trader, a screenshot of the misleading description of the car, my own written statement of what i noticed, and the consumer rights act 2015, saying to him: "Under the Consumer Rights Act 2015, this car should be of a satisfactory quality, fit for purpose and as described. My rights have been breached because the car you sold me is faulty/doesn’t match the description. I would like you to put this right by repairing the car at your cost." while voice recording the whole thing to have records and dismiss any potential "intimidation" arguments, i should be good? I only want to take the docs to him once i have full ownership of the vehicle though, which will mean keeping him in the dark, just so he transfers ownership to me, then hitting him with the paperwork. I want to keep the car, but get all of my money back. From citizens advice i understand that since i am within 6 months of purchase, i can go to him with the paperwork, request a repair, since the car must of been faulty when purchased, but he would need to prove it which he can't just say the car was fine when sold since the ford document stating things are wrong with the car says otherwise, my statement, meaning he would need to actually fix the problems (which are going to be insanely hard as it's a head gasket + others). Once the repair (if he accepted) is done, as long as he doesn't take too long (i will get in writing from him when he will complete the repair and if longer than said date, get a partial refund and a repaired car), if the repair hasn't solved the problem(s) or another has developed, i may only get part of my money back, depending on how much i've used the car. But i could also ask for a discount if i still want the car. I am unsure of how much money he can deduce by giving me back part of my money divided by the amount of miles I've done or any other factor if there's any guidelines on how little he can pay me since i have used the car. And that i can use an out of court ‘alternative dispute resolution' agency like the motor ombudsman, but i can't if he/his company does not follow the ombudsman's codes which he does not. So it's looking like I'm going to have to go to court (small claims?) if he refuses to pay out after the repair or if the amount he pays out is minuscule in comparison to the price of the car, or if he denies a repair, denies a repair on grounds that everything is currently fine and was fine when sold despite the ford doc and me being within 6 months or any other clause he can use to get out of losing anything. The MOT however, is done by a guy that the trader knows well and is right next to his garage. The DVSA agree that on a 3-5 year old car a test can be completed in 30 minutes and upwards, above 5 years, 45 minutes is acceptable, and older cars as long as it takes, and the MOT failed on 2 things at 11:23am and then passed at 11:47am, 24 minutes, which violates the DVSA minimum time of 30 minutes while considering the trader knows the MOT guy extremely well, paid him to pass it (but can't prove it), and the fact that with what ford come back with in the pre-mot alone, not even with the other checks, WILL fail the pre-mot, and with what I've found, means that, that car should of NOT been passed or been on the roads. I know the trader will attempt to slither his way out of it by way of not paying or repairing or doing anything he can considering he knowing sold a misleading dodgy car, caused immense distress, financial loss and that if i was on a dual carriageway which i needed to go on to reach TCH, if that engine seized, the wheels would of locked up, i would've spun out caused an accident or death to another person or myself, flipping onto the roof of my car. This means, that i think i will end up taking him to court. Which although i feel like my case is clearly the winning side, i feel like i could end up with less or nothing from court, or the court would reach a fair judgement where he actually pays less, or i'm required to give the car back for all of my money, half my money back or a 2nd repair from him. I will have to probably solicitelawyer up (?) which would be the easiest pay days of their lives. I aim to keep the lovely car, but get as much money back as possible. I am not sure on the massive grey areas of the consumer rights act 2015, my specific case or where i stand, but i believe i am massively in the right of winning everything outright in court, or potentially losing, or only gaining half of everything. Can i have some guidance on what to do please? i am in a shitty situation with no knowing of law. Thank you for taking the time to read this abhorrently long post.

Because I am just as nervous as everyone else: I was just wondering if anyone knew the ratio of # of positions VS. the # of applicants. I have friends that did JET in the past saying stuff that it’s really open but also friends put on the wait list…. Those friends go on and say that the waitlist is always used up? Mixed messages I know!
And for bonus points: when do you think messages go out?

Hi! My name is Long, I’m 27 years old and I reside in Philadelphia, PA! Here's what I look like. I’ve been looking for a LTR with someone that clicks, while I’ve met some amazing people, I haven’t met the one just yet.
Hobbies – Video games are a big one for me. Fighting games, Dead by Daylight, Wow, you name it I’ve probably played it! I used to play a few video games professionally and have been competing on and off ever since! I'm currently playing a lot of Wow and primarily do raiding and M+ content.
Outside of gaming I also workout, play D&D, and I’m a huge fan crime scene documentaries like JCS or Explore with us on youtube!
I’m also a singer! I’m a huge fan of singing Disney songs, R&B, and Nsync. While my voice may crack, you’ll still be swooned by my performance 😉
Lastly, I’m a yugioh / Pokémon / figure collector. My brother got me a PSA 6 Charizard a few years back that I still have to this day, and ever since I became hooked. I have a growing collection that I’d love to share with you.
Real life stuff- I do have a career that I’ve been blessed to have so you don’t have to worry about me not paying my side of things! It’s remote as well. I have my own apartment that I take care of with 2 beautiful cats named Sanji and Mojo. One has a permanent head tilt, while the other is cow printed and is a little..stupid..no he’s a lot of stupid. Sanji is named after my favorite one piece character and Mojo is named after the power puff girls villain Mojojojo. Pet pics for pet pics?
I have no issue relocating if we click.
Music – I listen to all sorts of music. While I listen to everything, I usually stick to 90s-2000s R&B and rap with hints of modern day stuff, metal and rock of all varieties, and any type of hyfy EDM/house/dance hall music.
Some examples of the stuff I’ve listened to are Usher, Cartel, Wu Tang Clan, T-Pain Mothica, TesseracT, Dream Theater, Slipknot, of Mice & Men, Chris Lake, Doja Cat, Black Eyed Peas (Old school and new), Salvatore Ganacci, A Tribe Called Quest, Denzel Curry, and Kendrick Lamar. As you can see it’s a lot of different genres! It just depends on my mood at that time.
Love languages – Touch is the biggest one for me, but honestly, I have all of them. I love the thought of both of us doing our own thing in our own place, and I walk past you as I go get some more coffee or go to the bathroom and give you a quick hug and kiss on the cheek and flirt with you real fast before I head back. I want you to be comfortable knowing that I’ll be there to reassure you or tell you how beautiful you are, or if you’re busy and you need something to drink I’ll go and get it for you, or if you’re looking at this brand new game that you can’t get I’ll get it for you…Or if you had a rough day and need to unwind that I’ll drop what I’m doing and take you to the movies or the arcade and have a nice chill day together, with just you and I.
Plans for the future – I’ll be frank and state that I am not looking to have kids at this time. I’m a bit selfish with my time and that time is reserved for my close friends and my future partner. I’m also looking for someone between 24-31 and I am strictly monogamous.
Okay phew that was a lot, I appreciate if you read everything and if you’re interested at all please send me a chat or message with one of your passions, something that gets you going and makes you the amazing person you are. Please also send a picture! I do think physical attraction is important, it’s not the end all be all but it does play a factor.
Alright, I hope to hear from you soon, have a great rest of your week and thank you for reading

Hi! My name is Long, I’m 27 years old and I reside in Philadelphia, PA! Here's what I look like. I’ve been looking for a LTR with someone that clicks, while I’ve met some amazing people, I haven’t met the one just yet.
Hobbies – Video games are a big one for me. Fighting games, Dead by Daylight, Wow, you name it I’ve probably played it! I used to play a few video games professionally and have been competing on and off ever since! I'm currently playing a lot of Wow and primarily do raiding and M+ content.
Outside of gaming I also workout, play D&D, and I’m a huge fan crime scene documentaries like JCS or Explore with us on youtube!
I’m also a singer! I’m a huge fan of singing Disney songs, R&B, and Nsync. While my voice may crack, you’ll still be swooned by my performance 😉
Lastly, I’m a yugioh / Pokémon / figure collector. My brother got me a PSA 6 Charizard a few years back that I still have to this day, and ever since I became hooked. I have a growing collection that I’d love to share with you.
Real life stuff- I do have a career that I’ve been blessed to have so you don’t have to worry about me not paying my side of things! It’s remote as well. I have my own apartment that I take care of with 2 beautiful cats named Sanji and Mojo. One has a permanent head tilt, while the other is cow printed and is a little..stupid..no he’s a lot of stupid. Sanji is named after my favorite one piece character and Mojo is named after the power puff girls villain Mojojojo. Pet pics for pet pics?
I have no issue relocating if we click.
Music – I listen to all sorts of music. While I listen to everything, I usually stick to 90s-2000s R&B and rap with hints of modern day stuff, metal and rock of all varieties, and any type of hyfy EDM/house/dance hall music.
Some examples of the stuff I’ve listened to are Usher, Cartel, Wu Tang Clan, T-Pain Mothica, TesseracT, Dream Theater, Slipknot, of Mice & Men, Chris Lake, Doja Cat, Black Eyed Peas (Old school and new), Salvatore Ganacci, A Tribe Called Quest, Denzel Curry, and Kendrick Lamar. As you can see it’s a lot of different genres! It just depends on my mood at that time.
Love languages – Touch is the biggest one for me, but honestly, I have all of them. I love the thought of both of us doing our own thing in our own place, and I walk past you as I go get some more coffee or go to the bathroom and give you a quick hug and kiss on the cheek and flirt with you real fast before I head back. I want you to be comfortable knowing that I’ll be there to reassure you or tell you how beautiful you are, or if you’re busy and you need something to drink I’ll go and get it for you, or if you’re looking at this brand new game that you can’t get I’ll get it for you…Or if you had a rough day and need to unwind that I’ll drop what I’m doing and take you to the movies or the arcade and have a nice chill day together, with just you and I.
Plans for the future – I’ll be frank and state that I am not looking to have kids at this time. I’m a bit selfish with my time and that time is reserved for my close friends and my future partner. I’m also looking for someone between 24-31 and I am strictly monogamous.
Okay phew that was a lot, I appreciate if you read everything and if you’re interested at all please send me a chat or message with one of your passions, something that gets you going and makes you the amazing person you are. Please also send a picture! I do think physical attraction is important, it’s not the end all be all but it does play a factor.
Alright, I hope to hear from you soon, have a great rest of your week and thank you for reading

My girlfriend and Had a pretty large issue in early February. I hurt her feelings quite bad, and prioritized my sport over her. We have had a myriad of other problems since then, and the way it goes every single time is that I make a blinder of some kind, and it makes her feel unloved, and unappreciated.
I’m not an arguer, I don’t really bring things up, so the way these talks always go is her listing grievances and me trying to understand and validate them, and successfully apologize and convince her that she is the most beautiful thing in the world and There is absolutely nothing I wouldn’t do for her (this is true).
But it hasn’t stopped. We’re not at rock bottom anymore, but these slip ups on the climb back are almost more painful. I say something wrong or rude, and boom everything just wells back up. It’s been like this for maybe two weeks, where we have 3 or 4 good days, then I workout too long or get caught up with friends and then I’ve hurt her feelings all over again.
Most recently, we were having a good few days, made dinner together for her parents, did puzzles, etc. but I had told a friend of mine that he should stop by at my house later that night because he had something he really wanted to show me. Because of this, I asked my GF if we could leave her parents home a little earlier, but I didn’t really tell her why. Not intentionally, but I didn’t nonetheless. So when we got there and I told her what was happening, she felt betrayed: like I had coerced her to leave just so I could “do what I REALLY wanted to do that night,” which is see my other friend. In my planning, I just thought he would stop by, show me what it was he wanted to show me, then I get on with my night with my girl.
The problem here, aside from the obvious ones, is that I feel like I’m trying so hard to cater to whatever she needs from me, to prove to her that our love is something I hold sacred. We don’t live together, and I’ve made more trips than ever to see her, bring her food and flowers, be there for her to support her while she deals with other things in her life, etc. but I just can’t seem to stop myself from making these idiotic blinders that just make her feel like I don’t care about her, or that I’m not listening when she asks to be more considered.
I hate myself for doing this to her, I’m making the girl I hold above everything feel like shit time and time again, and this time feels bad. She hasn’t spoken to me all day, I just want to make her feel loved.
I know an obvious fix is for me to run an even tighter ship personally, but what can I do for her now? I know she’s miserable right now, I sure as hell am. but I don’t know what the best option for me is
If you read all this thanks. Felt good to write this down

I won't mention anyone's names for privacy.
Ok, so I'm in 9th grade and am a boy. Recently one of my classmates thinks that I took a picture of her. Yesterday at midnight one of her friends messaged me on Instagram on THEIR ALT account saying she heard I took a picture of "X." If I did she wanted me to delete it because X has become uncomfortable with it. She said she thought it was weird if I did. I replied that I didn't take a picture and asked why she thought I did. When I checked this morning she had seen my message and she had deleted her own. She hadn't even replied anything either just deleted it and vanished. Later one of my friends told me she posted a story on IG saying someone was taking pictures of her. She made all of her stories and highlights for close friends and removed me from her CF list. So now I can't see anything she posts. I'm not sure what to do now, and I'm still unsure of what she's gonna do next. She might not even believe me and tell the Dean or one of the teachers. Even if she does though she doesn't have any proof to pin it on me so they might not believe her. They can check my phone's photos too I have nothing to hide. But the problem with that is I have personal photos on there. Like my parents, family members, and other sensitive photos. The teachers can't force me to show them the photos on my phone right? That has to be an invasion of privacy.

i was showing a friend the time and wind quest and they blasted all the wind things away but it only counted two out of 3 and when it became day again, we set the time again and none respawned, i was puzzled so i did it on my own account on solo and the same issue happened, it only counted two of the wind blasts, is the quest broken forever now? reloading hasnt changed anything, were on playstation if that changes anything.

I hope you guys see this. I’m always excited to see what your postcards are going to be and my book is full of them. Thanks so much for sharing your parts of the world with me!! (If you do see this I’m Mal02 on your friends list. Never delete me pls.)

Hello world. I'm a 35 year old ordinary human being looking to escape the futility of searching for friends or otherwise as a man past his prime. I'm currently in the market for another to share and grow with.
A bit soft around the mid section with a few screws rattling around upstairs, I can still boast 4 limbs and a semi-functioning brain. I have a lifetime of experience in all manners of degeneracy, regeneracy, half-baked aspirations, foolish hail mary's and everything inbetween. The product at the end of all that is something, somehow, sort-of upright; artfully broken and ready to embrace the good times.
I'm searching for someone to get to know. That doesn't necessarily have to be romance, but if you feel like that is a potential outcome then I would humbly request that you be from the UK or somewhere relatively nearby. I realize that is hard to know without context, but I think most people have an idea of what they want from these exchanges.
I want to talk with someone and be completely vulnerable. I'm tired of holding my shield up all the time; It's heavy and it has spikes. I want to share my life with you and have you do the same. I want someone to talk with that values honesty and integrity but can still laugh at fart jokes. I'd like to be with someone who isn't afraid to tell me they think something is stupid and rhyme off a thousand incredibly subjective but hilarious reasons why it is stupid. Be opinionated, be fearless and know yourself.
I'm looking for someone open, honest and detached. We all have history and a lot of it is ugly. It doesn't matter what it is, but you have to be willing to share like I will with you. Life has ups and downs and how you manage it defines you. I think communication is extremely important in relationships. I'm no saint in that regard but I work on it in my regular life. I don't think arguments or getting angry has to be the end of the world. I think communication has been the biggest contributor to failings of my past relationships, friends or otherwise; and I think that's common in society so I consider it important to work on.
If you have pets you are obligated by universal law to surrender their pictures to me. I don't currently have animal friends but I can share old ones.
I am driven and obsessive about my passions. I live with family by choice. I can be crude, blunt and dark. I have sadness but it doesn't dictate my life. I am single and have been for a long time by choice. I have a clean divorce long in the past with no baggage or fallout. I removed myself from the social loop by choice but have since realized that I can't do this alone anymore, so this is my attempt at reaching out to the world for someone like-minded. Local apps and community were sadly a bust.
Basically, I'm a lonely man with a lot to offer and I want to be important to someone and have them be the same for me.
Me: I love nature, hiking [but not in a social media way], games [video or board or otherwise], most forms of media [I love to talk about music and film], reading, writing, cooking, and animals. I'm leaving out specifics because that's part of the process.
You: Like me but more like you than me because I'm kind of lame. Must be open to the potential of voice calls in the future. Must be interested in daily conversation or otherwise. Ideally 30+
So it goes

Hi guys,
I was trying to find an answer to this, but didn't really managed to. I want to list a new apartment and I'm the owner. A good friend of mine is already a host of his apartments and has a super host status. Do you think if I name him a co-host or primary host would his super host status show off on my listing ? My intention is to get as good search position as possible in the early days of the listing before I myself earn this superhost status.
​
Thank in advance for your answer.

TLDR I’m in hot water at work because I’m an alcoholic and was doing alcoholic stuff. Who should know what?
I go to this really great meeting Saturday and usually Sunday mornings. A lot of times I know a trusted friend and colleague will be there. I really respect this guy and he’s helped me a lot. We worked together and drank together often, but family life changed that and we seldom hung out. When I switched roles at work we did not see each other daily or communicate much. When I found he’s in AA I thought to myself I probably would have guessed he was the one my other buddy was talking about when he asked my permission to share my name. We had conversations about our mutual troubles with alcohol when we saw each other every work day.
Largely because of my alcoholism and how it exacerbated depression and anxiety I was given a new role at work. I’m at risk of losing my job (not renewing my contract)but the union says “not going to happen”. The rep says if they fire you we will sue and we will win. This does not change the fact that it’s because I f’d shit up that I’m in this position.
Management seems to be backing off, had a pow wow with the grand po ba and the whole gang Friday and was told “just keep doing what you’re doing “ when I asked if there is anything I can do differently or better.
Now enter second guy. I think we have worked together for three years, but I’ve never met him until my new role. Heard good things, people really respect him. Meeting him I see why he’s held in high esteem. Salt of the Earth dude. He really cares about people which is basically his job description and he brings a dog to work. This is the guy I saw at the meeting today. I wanted to check in with a couple people and dog dad left before I could talk to him.
3rd guy is my job “coach”. Coaching, both sports and teachers is most of his role. I think it’s one class he teaches Anyway mad respect for this guy. 100% confident he will keep what I tell him confidential. 100% confident the dude is in my corner. We’re not friends outside of work and I’ve known him through work for close to 20 years. I told him I was in residential treatment for “head problems”. This is true, but not complete disclosure which management all knows about because HR told everyone above me. Yes, they broke the law doing this. I’ll consider what leverage I can get out of this if they sack me. They f’d up and know it.
Obviously I’ll be talking to second guy. Giving 3rd guy the whole story will feel most comfortable to me. As I said it’s guaranteed he will keep confidence, I’m also confident he won’t judge. He shared some of his personal struggles when I told him I was had head problems
Frankly, I’m worried about stress and pressure in this new role. I have kids with serious issues. A couple have the potential to “trigger” me, self harm, borderline personality disorder, suicide attempts etc aka my mom from childhood until her 4th or 5Th attempt and first and only completed suicide. I’m quite confident that I won’t be triggered, but it would be irresponsible to not prepare for it.
I’ve also got kids in recovery, I don’t see any issues here. I do not anticipate disclosing to any kids I’m an alcoholic. Going through treatment definitely helps me do better with kids like this
Also, I’m subject to a ridicules level of scrutiny. I was observed three times last week. Usually it’s a few times a semester and on Friday I learned that they wanna “keep a good eye on Dryguy”..
It already came to pass that it made sense that I told guy two that I’ve got a potential trigger with suicide, I’ve worked successfully in crisis response to a suicide since mom’s death. I left out that helping inspired an epic binge. I never meet the dude, but wish I had. Several people I care about were very close to him.
A final twist is my new immediate bosses, one is great in many ways, and not so great in others. The other is just awful, thinks she’s amazing. Some people are amazed she has a job
I’d appreciate any wisdom you have to share.

Hi, so I'm trying to use battlescribe to build my army list and such and my friends are as well. We decided to start with a 500pt army. How do we go about building an army that stays withing the current rules on battlescribe what selections would need to be put in before we start adding units and any special rules to army building as we are all brand new to 40k

Everything in my inventory is up for trade. The most valuable items are listed here, the rest you can find in My Inventory

Feel free to Add Me or even better send a Trade Offer. Open for any suggestions: upgrades, downgrades / knives, gloves, skins / stickers, patterns, floats.

All Buyouts are listed in cash value.

KNIVES

★ Butterfly Knife Freehand FN #1, B/O: $1867

★ Butterfly Knife Bright Water MW, B/O: $1098

★ Butterfly Knife Blue Steel BS, B/O: $907

★ Butterfly Knife Ultraviolet FT, B/O: $789

★ Butterfly Knife Stained FT, B/O: $695

⎯

★ Bayonet Tiger Tooth MW #1, B/O: $888

★ Bayonet Gamma Doppler (Phase 4) FN, B/O: $727

★ Bayonet Doppler (Phase 2) FN, B/O: $608

★ Bayonet Doppler (Phase 1) FN, B/O: $521

★ Bayonet Rust Coat BS, B/O: $253

★ Bayonet Night FT, B/O: $251

★ StatTrak™ Bayonet Lore MW, B/O: $751

⎯

★ Karambit Gamma Doppler (Phase 4) FN, B/O: $1343

★ Karambit Damascus Steel FT, B/O: $774

★ Karambit Rust Coat BS, B/O: $537

★ Karambit Boreal Forest FT, B/O: $488

⎯

★ M9 Bayonet Fade FN, B/O: $1523

★ M9 Bayonet Fade FN, B/O: $1523

★ M9 Bayonet Doppler (Phase 4) FN, B/O: $1008

★ M9 Bayonet Blue Steel FT, B/O: $534

★ M9 Bayonet Rust Coat BS, B/O: $449

⎯

★ Flip Knife Fade FN, B/O: $703

★ Flip Knife Gamma Doppler (Phase 1) MW, B/O: $509

★ Flip Knife Doppler (Phase 1) FN, B/O: $406

★ Flip Knife Freehand FT, B/O: $228

★ StatTrak™ Flip Knife Bright Water FN, B/O: $332

⎯

★ Falchion Knife Doppler (Phase 2) FN, B/O: $292

★ Falchion Knife Doppler (Phase 3) FN, B/O: $264

★ Falchion Knife Marble Fade FN, B/O: $258

★ Falchion Knife Bright Water MW, B/O: $133

⎯

★ Stiletto Knife Fade FN, B/O: $822

★ Stiletto Knife Slaughter FN, B/O: $569

★ Stiletto Knife Doppler (Phase 1) FN, B/O: $530

★ Stiletto Knife Crimson Web FT, B/O: $396

★ StatTrak™ Stiletto Knife Scorched FT, B/O: $172

⎯

★ Gut Knife Doppler (Sapphire) MW #1, B/O: $830

★ Gut Knife Fade FN, B/O: $204

★ Gut Knife Tiger Tooth FN, B/O: $138

★ Gut Knife Bright Water MW, B/O: $104

★ Gut Knife Freehand FT, B/O: $92

★ Gut Knife Urban Masked FT, B/O: $82

★ StatTrak™ Gut Knife Rust Coat BS, B/O: $93

⎯

★ Shadow Daggers Fade FN, B/O: $258

★ Shadow Daggers Doppler (Phase 3) FN, B/O: $165

★ Shadow Daggers Blue Steel FT, B/O: $82

★ Shadow Daggers Bright Water FT, B/O: $82

★ Shadow Daggers Blue Steel WW, B/O: $80

★ Shadow Daggers Rust Coat BS, B/O: $74

★ StatTrak™ Shadow Daggers Marble Fade FN, B/O: $186

⎯

★ Classic Knife Slaughter MW, B/O: $311

★ StatTrak™ Classic Knife Stained BS, B/O: $163

⎯

★ Talon Knife Slaughter MW, B/O: $605

★ Talon Knife Scorched MW, B/O: $290

⎯

★ Ursus Knife Marble Fade FN, B/O: $405

★ Ursus Knife Night Stripe MW, B/O: $162

⎯

★ Paracord Knife Stained WW, B/O: $125

★ Paracord Knife Forest DDPAT FT, B/O: $97

★ Paracord Knife Safari Mesh FT, B/O: $96

⎯

★ Navaja Knife Safari Mesh FT, B/O: $71

★ Navaja Knife Scorched WW, B/O: $71

⎯

★ Nomad Knife Fade FN, B/O: $1015

★ Skeleton Knife, B/O: $909

★ Bowie Knife Boreal Forest MW, B/O: $106

★ Survival Knife Forest DDPAT FT, B/O: $97

GLOVES

★ Driver Gloves Crimson Weave FT, B/O: $335

★ Driver Gloves King Snake BS, B/O: $270

★ Driver Gloves Lunar Weave WW, B/O: $113

★ Driver Gloves Overtake WW, B/O: $88

★ Driver Gloves Overtake BS, B/O: $67

⎯

★ Moto Gloves Transport MW, B/O: $171

★ Moto Gloves Polygon BS, B/O: $137

★ Moto Gloves Transport WW, B/O: $71

★ Moto Gloves 3rd Commando Company BS, B/O: $62

⎯

★ Specialist Gloves Crimson Kimono WW, B/O: $1027

★ Specialist Gloves Tiger Strike FT, B/O: $654

★ Specialist Gloves Mogul FT, B/O: $295

★ Specialist Gloves Lt. Commander FT, B/O: $277

★ Specialist Gloves Crimson Web FT, B/O: $275

⎯

★ Sport Gloves Slingshot FT, B/O: $796

★ Sport Gloves Amphibious BS #2, B/O: $699

★ Sport Gloves Omega FT, B/O: $656

⎯

★ Broken Fang Gloves Unhinged BS, B/O: $60

WEAPONS

AK-47 Case Hardened BS, B/O: $130

AK-47 Bloodsport MW, B/O: $79

AK-47 Fuel Injector BS, B/O: $76

AK-47 Fuel Injector BS, B/O: $76

AK-47 Bloodsport FT, B/O: $70

AK-47 Neon Rider MW, B/O: $60

⎯

AWP Fade FN, B/O: $864

AWP BOOM MW, B/O: $84

AWP Containment Breach FT, B/O: $69

AWP Containment Breach FT, B/O: $69

AWP Wildfire FT, B/O: $59

AWP Chromatic Aberration FN, B/O: $59

StatTrak™ AWP Hyper Beast FT, B/O: $65

StatTrak™ AWP Hyper Beast FT, B/O: $65

⎯

Desert Eagle Blaze FN, B/O: $565

Desert Eagle Blaze FN, B/O: $565

Desert Eagle Printstream FN, B/O: $155

Desert Eagle Cobalt Disruption FN, B/O: $58

⎯

M4A1-S Icarus Fell FN, B/O: $414

M4A1-S Printstream MW, B/O: $204

M4A1-S Printstream MW, B/O: $204

⎯

M4A4 Poseidon FN, B/O: $1402

M4A4 The Emperor FN, B/O: $152

M4A4 Asiimov WW, B/O: $97

⎯

USP-S Kill Confirmed MW, B/O: $65

USP-S Printstream FT, B/O: $69

StatTrak™ USP-S Kill Confirmed FT, B/O: $123

StatTrak™ USP-S Neo-Noir FN, B/O: $106

⎯

AUG Flame Jörmungandr FN, B/O: $218

P2000 Ocean Foam FN, B/O: $139

Souvenir SSG 08 Death Strike MW, B/O: $81

CZ75-Auto Emerald Quartz MW, B/O: $61

Trade Offer Link - Steam Profile Link - My Inventory

Knives - Bowie Knife, Butterfly Knife, Falchion Knife, Flip Knife, Gut Knife, Huntsman Knife, M9 Bayonet, Bayonet, Karambit, Shadow Daggers, Stiletto Knife, Ursus Knife, Navaja Knife, Talon Knife, Classic Knife, Paracord Knife, Survival Knife, Nomad Knife, Skeleton Knife, Patterns - Gamma Doppler, Doppler (Phase 1, Phase 2, Phase 3, Phase 4, Black Pearl, Sapphire, Ruby, Emerald), Crimson Web, Lore, Fade, Ultraviolet, Night, Marble Fade (Fire & Ice, Fake FI), Case Hardened (Blue Gem), Autotronic, Slaughter, Black Laminate, Tiger Tooth, Boreal Forest, Scorched, Blue Steel, Vanilla, Damascus Steel, Forest DDPAT, Urban Masked, Freehand, Stained, Bright Water, Safari Mesh, Rust Coat, Gloves - Bloodhound Gloves (Charred, Snakebite, Guerrilla, Bronzed), Driver Gloves (Snow Leopard, King Snake, Crimson Weave, Imperial Plaid, Black Tie, Lunar Weave, Diamondback, Rezan the Red, Overtake, Queen Jaguar, Convoy, Racing Green), Hand Wraps (Cobalt Skulls, CAUTION!, Overprint, Slaughter, Leather, Giraffe, Badlands, Spruce DDPAT, Arboreal, Constrictor, Desert Shamagh, Duct Tape), Moto Gloves (Spearmint, POW!, Cool Mint, Smoke Out, Finish Line, Polygon, Blood Pressure, Turtle, Boom!, Eclipse, 3rd Commando Company, Transport), Specialist Gloves (Crimson Kimono, Tiger Strike, Emerald Web, Field Agent, Marble Fade, Fade, Foundation, Lt. Commander, Crimson Web, Mogul, Forest DDPAT, Buckshot), Sport Gloves (Pandora's Box, Superconductor, Hedge Maze, Vice, Amphibious, Slingshot, Omega, Arid, Big Game, Nocts, Scarlet Shamagh, Bronze Morph), Hydra Gloves (Case Hardened, Emerald, Rattler, Mangrove), Broken Fang Gloves (Jade, Yellow-banded, Unhinged, Needle Point), Pistols - P2000 (Wicked Sick, Ocean Foam, Fire Element, Amber Fade, Corticera, Chainmail, Imperial Dragon, Obsidian, Scorpion, Handgun, Acid Etched), USP-S (Printstream, Kill Confirmed, Whiteout, Road Rash, Owergrowth, The Traitor, Neo-Noir, Dark Water, Orion, Blueprint, Stainless, Caiman, Serum, Monster Mashup, Royal Blue, Ancient Visions, Cortex, Orange Anolis, Ticket To Hell, Black Lotus, Cyrex, Check Engine, Guardian, Purple DDPAT, Torque, Blood Tiger, Flashback, Business Class, Pathfinder, Para Green), Lead Conduit, Glock-18 (Umbral Rabbit, Fade, Candy Apple, Bullet Queen, Synth Leaf, Neo-Noir, Nuclear Garden, Dragon Tatto, Reactor, Pink DDPAT, Twilight Galaxy, Sand Dune, Groundwater, Blue Fissure, Snack Attack, Water Elemental, Brass, Wasteland Rebel, Vogue, Franklin, Royal Legion, Gamma Doppler, Weasel, Steel Disruption, Ironwork, Grinder, High Beam, Moonrise, Oxide Blaze, Bunsen Burner, Clear Polymer, Bunsen Burner, Night), P250 (Re.built, Nuclear Threat, Modern Hunter, Splash, Whiteout, Vino Primo, Mehndi, Asiimov, Visions, Undertow, Cartel, See Ya Later, Gunsmoke, Splash, Digital Architect, Muertos, Red Rock, Bengal Tiger, Crimson Kimono, Wingshot, Metallic DDPAT, Hive, Dark Filigree, Mint Kimono), Five-Seven (Neon Kimono, Berries And Cherries, Fall Hazard, Crimson Blossom, Hyper Beast, Nitro, Fairy Tale, Case Hardened, Copper Galaxy, Angry Mob, Monkey Business, Fowl Play, Anodized Gunmetal, Hot Shot, Retrobution, Boost Protocol), CZ75-Auto (Chalice, Crimson Web, Emerald Quartz, The Fuschia is Now, Nitro, Xiangliu, Yellow Jacket, Victoria, Poison Dart, Syndicate, Eco, Hexane, Pole, Tigris), Tec-9 (Rebel, Terrace, Nuclear Threat, Hades, Rust Leaf, Decimator, Blast From, Orange Murano, Toxic, Fuel Injector, Remote Control, Bamboo Forest, Isaac, Avalanche, Brother, Re-Entry, Blue Titanium, Bamboozle), R8 Revolver (Banana Cannon, Fade, Blaze, Crimson Web, Liama Cannon, Crazy 8, Reboot, Canal Spray, Night, Amber Fade), Desert Eagle (Blaze, Hand Cannon, Fennec Fox, Sunset Storm, Emerald Jörmungandr, Pilot, Hypnotic, Golden Koi, Printstream, Cobalt Disruption, Code Red, Ocean Drive, Midnight Storm, Kumicho Dragon, Crimson Web, Heirloom, Night Heist, Mecha Industries, Night, Conspiracy, Trigger Discipline, Naga, Directive, Light Rail), Dual Berettas (Flora Carnivora, Duelist, Cobra Strike, Black Limba, Emerald, Hemoglobin, Twin Turbo, Marina, Melondrama, Pyre, Retribution, Briar, Dezastre, Royal Consorts, Urban Shock, Dualing Dragons, Panther, Balance), Rifles - Galil (Aqua Terrace, Winter Forest, Chatterbox, Sugar Rush, Pheonix Blacklight, CAUTION!, Orange DDPAT, Cerberus, Dusk Ruins, Eco, Chromatic Aberration, Stone Cold, Tuxedo, Sandstorm, Shattered, Urban Rubble, Rocket Pop, Kami, Crimson Tsunami, Connexion), SCAR-20 (Fragments, Brass, Cyrex, Palm, Splash Jam, Cardiac, Emerald, Crimson Web, Magna Carta, Stone Mosaico, Bloodsport, Enforcer), AWP (Duality, Gungnir, Dragon Lore, Prince, Medusa, Desert Hydra, Fade, Lightning Strike, Oni Taiji, Silk Tiger, Graphite, Chromatic Aberration, Asiimov, Snake Camo, Boom, Containment Breach, Wildfire, Redline, Electric Hive, Hyper Beast, Neo-Noir, Man-o'-war, Pink DDPAT, Corticera, Sun in Leo, Elite Build, Fever Dream, Atheris, Mortis, PAW, Exoskeleton, Worm God, POP AWP, Phobos, Acheron, Pit Viper, Capillary, Safari Mesh), AK-47 (Head Shot, Wild Lotus, Gold Arabesque, X-Ray, Fire Serpent, Hydroponic, Panthera Onca, Case Hardened, Vulcan, Jet Set, Fuel Injector, Bloodsport, Nightwish, First Class, Neon Rider, Asiimov, Red Laminate, Aquamarine Revenge, The Empress, Wasteland Rebel, Jaguar, Black Laminate, Leet Museo, Neon Revolution, Redline, Frontside Misty, Predator, Legion of Anubis, Point Disarray, Orbit Mk01, Blue Laminate, Green Laminate, Emerald Pinstripe, Cartel, Phantom Disruptor, Jungle Spray, Safety Net, Rat Rod, Baroque Purple, Slate, Elite Build, Uncharted, Safari Mesh), FAMAS (Sundown, Prime Conspiracy, Afterimage, Commemoration, Dark Water, Spitfire, Pulse, Eye of Athena, Meltdown, Rapid Eye Move, Roll Cage, Styx, Mecha Industrie, Djinn, ZX Spectron, Valence, Neural Net, Night Borre, Hexne), M4A4 (Temukau, Howl, Poseidon, Asiimov, Daybreak, Hellfire, Zirka, Red DDPAT, Radiation Hazard, Modern Hunter, The Emperor, The Coalition, Bullet Rain, Cyber Security, X-Ray, Dark Blossom, Buzz Kill, In Living Color, Neo-Noir, Desolate Space, 龍王 (Dragon King), Royal Paladin, The Battlestar, Global Offensive, Tooth Fairy, Desert-Strike, Griffin, Evil Daimyo, Spider Lily, Converter), M4A1-S (Emphorosaur-S, Welcome to the Jungle, Imminent Danger, Knight, Hot Rod, Icarus Fell, Blue Phosphor, Printstream, Master Piece, Dark Water, Golden Coil, Bright Water, Player Two, Atomic Alloy, Guardian, Chantico's Fire, Hyper Beast, Mecha Industries, Cyrex, Control Panel, Moss Quartz, Nightmare, Decimator, Leaded Glass, Basilisk, Blood Tiger, Briefing, Night Terror, Nitro, VariCamo, Flashback), SG 553 (Cyberforce, Hazard Pay, Bulldozer, Integrale, Dragon Tech, Ultraviolet, Colony IV, Hypnotic, Cyrex, Candy Apple, Barricade, Pulse), SSG 08 (Death Strike, Sea Calico, Blood in the Water, Orange Filigree, Dragonfire, Big Iron, Bloodshot, Detour, Turbo Peek, Red Stone), AUG (Akihabara Accept, Flame Jörmungandr, Hot Rod, Midnight Lily, Sand Storm, Carved Jade, Wings, Anodized Navy, Death by Puppy, Torque, Bengal Tiger, Chameleon, Fleet Flock, Random Access, Momentum, Syd Mead, Stymphalian, Arctic Wolf, Aristocrat, Navy Murano), G3SG1 (Chronos, Violet Murano, Flux, Demeter, Orange Kimono, The Executioner, Green Apple, Arctic Polar Camo, Contractor), SMGs - P90 (Neoqueen, Astral Jörmungandr, Run and Hide, Emerald Dragon, Cold Blooded, Death by Kitty, Baroque Red, Vent Rush, Blind Spot, Asiimov, Trigon, Sunset Lily, Death Grip, Leather, Nostalgia, Fallout Warning, Tiger Pit, Schermatic, Virus, Shapewood, Glacier Mesh, Shallow Grave, Chopper, Desert Warfare), MAC-10 (Sakkaku, Hot Snakes, Copper Borre, Red Filigree, Gold Brick, Graven, Case Hardened, Stalker, Amber Fade, Neon Rider, Tatter, Curse, Propaganda, Nuclear Garden, Disco Tech, Toybox, Heat, Indigo), UMP-45 (Wild Child, Fade, Blaze, Day Lily, Minotaur's Labyrinth, Crime Scene, Caramel, Bone Pile, Momentum, Primal Saber), MP7 (Teal Blossom, Fade, Nemesis, Whiteout, Asterion, Bloosport, Abyssal Apparition, Full Stop, Special Delivery, Neon Ply, Asterion, Ocean Foam, Powercore, Scorched, Impire), PP-Bizon (Modern Hunter, Rust Coat, Forest Leaves, Antique, High Roller, Blue Streak, Seabird, Judgement of Anubis, Bamboo Print, Embargo, Chemical Green, Coblat Halftone, Fuel Rod, Photic Zone, Irradiated Alert, Carbon Fiber), MP9 (Featherweight, Wild Lily, Pandora's Box, Stained Glass, Bulldozer, Dark Age, Hot Rod, Hypnotic, Hydra, Rose Iron, Music Box, Setting Sun, Food Chain, Airlock, Mount Fuji, Starlight Protector, Ruby Poison Dart, Deadly Poison), MP5-SD (Liquidation, Oxide Oasis, Phosphor, Nitro, Agent, Autumn Twilly), Shotguns, Machineguns - Sawed-Off (Kiss♥Love, First Class, Orange DDPAT, Rust Coat, The Kraken, Devourer, Mosaico, Wasteland Princess, Bamboo Shadow, Copper, Serenity, Limelight, Apocalypto), XM1014 (Frost Borre, Ancient Lore, Red Leather, Elegant Vines, Banana Leaf, Jungle, Urban Perforated, Grassland, Blaze Orange, Heaven Guard, VariCamo Blue, Entombed, XOXO, Seasons, Tranquility, Bone Machine, Incinegator, Teclu Burner, Black Tie, Zombie Offensive, Watchdog), Nova (Baroque Orange, Hyper Beast, Green Apple, Antique, Modern Hunter, Walnut, Forest Leaves, Graphite, Blaze Orange, Rising Skull, Tempest, Bloomstick, Interlock, Quick Sand, Moon in Libra, Clean Polymer, Red Quartz, Toy Soldier), MAG-7 (Insomnia, Cinqueda, Counter Terrace, Prism Terrace, Memento, Chainmail, Hazard, Justice, Bulldozer, Silver, Core Breach, Firestarter, Praetorian, Heat, Hard Water, Monster Call, BI83 Spectrum, SWAG-7), M249 (Humidor, Shipping Forecast, Blizzard Marbleized, Downtown, Jungle DDPAT, Nebula Crusader, Impact Drill, Emerald Poison Dart), Negev (Mjölnir, Anodized Navy, Palm, Power Loader, Bratatat, CaliCamo, Phoenix Stencil, Infrastructure, Boroque Sand), Wear - Factory New (FN), Minimal Wear (MW), Field-Tested (FT), Well-Worn (WW), Battle-Scarred (BS), Stickers Holo/Foil/Gold - Katowice 2014, Krakow 2017, Howling Dawn, Katowice 2015, Crown, London 2018, Cologne 2014, Boston 2018, Atlanta 2017, Cluj-Napoca 2015, DreamHack 2014, King on the Field, Harp of War, Winged Difuser, Cologne 2016, Cologne 2015, MLG Columbus 2016, Katowice 2019, Berlin 2019, RMR 2020, Stockholm 2021, Antwerp 2022, Swag Foil, Flammable foil, Others - Souvenirs, Agents, Pins, Passes, Gifts, Music Kits, Cases, Keys, Capsules, Packages, Patches

Some items on the list may no longer be available or are still locked, visit My Inventory for more details.

Send a Trade Offer for fastest response. I consider all offers.

Add me for discuss if there is a serious offer that needs to be discussed.

I stumbled across this in my Google Drive from more than ten years ago, and I'll be damned if it isn't more relevant today than it was then. I hope someone gets something out of this, and comments are absolutely welcome!
​
Originally written May 13, 2012 by Perihelion
Lately, it seems more and more that any time I put my mind to it, I am coming up with simple, rational solutions to many of the issues that we as Americans have to deal with. It seems to me that we have forgotten (or, more accurately, we've been conditioned to ignore) the fact that WE are the ones who are in charge. The people are the ones who ultimately make the decisions, but through years of lies, propaganda, and apathy, most Americans have become convinced that nobody can do anything about anything - that the Government is an immutable, unchangeable, unstoppable juggernaut without checks and balances. For the most part, I think they are right, but nobody seems to understand that we GAVE them this power - at some point, we decided that we didn't NEED to make any more decisions, because there are such 'intelligent' people there to do it for us.
It has led this society to a massive catch-22: We all agree that the government has too much power, doesn't do anything efficiently, and is chock-full of corruption, but at the exact same time, we drop to our knees and make the sign of the cross and tell ourselves that 'the Government is smarter than I am, and while I don't understand the decisions that they make, I will go ahead and accept them and stand by them'.
What? How can we be CONVINCED that the government is full of self-righteous, corrupt idiots, and yet STILL decide to adhere to every single arbitrary rule? According to what has been drilled into me for as long as I can remember, the people who make up the government are OUR EMPLOYEES - and what do you do with an incompetent employee?
The Federal Government needs to be reminded that WE tell THEM what they are allowed to do and to not do, not the other way around.
Here is an example of just how stupid we have all become - America has always been self-deluded with the idea that it is the greatest country in the world. However, if you look at our history, it is extremely difficult to come to that conclusion.
From the absolute beginning, we have built a country upon double-standards and racism. The 'Founding Fathers' was a group of slave-owning white men who decided that they shouldn't have to abide by the laws and decisions handed down by a faceless tyrant from 3000 miles away because nobody asked them their opinion. So what do they decide? They decide to create a government where the only people who have any power are white male landowners, and they built this government on the rotting carcasses of the Indians, Blacks, and British who stood in their way. What's worse is how they went about it - they made grand gestures and impassioned speeches about 'Freedom'. "We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights.." The Declaration of Independence is drafted in order to try to justify the treason that was being committed (refusing to accept the rule of law from the Crown of England) by making the argument that 'all men are created equal'! However, the MOMENT that Independence is won and the Founding Fathers begin to decide how they will run their new Government, the promises made in the Declaration of Independence are quietly and quickly forgotten. They used Equal Rights as the 'Selling Point' for getting everyone on board for rebellion against the English Crown, and then once they won the Revolution, these same Equal Rights would be conveniently hidden under a stack of rocks. You could almost say that the Declaration of Independence was the first 'Campaign Promise' made on American soil (and, therefore, the first to be broken). The Constitution of the United States is then created as the structure and foundation of the newly born United States Government.
It is 2 years before any Americans are actually granted any of the 'rights' that the Declaration of Independence had promised 'All men are granted by their Creator' - apparently the 'self-evident' truths needed a little clarification, and it is decided that the brand spanking new Constitution already needs a little work - the first 10 Amendments are introduced and collectively called the 'Bill of Rights'. I guess the 'Creator' which has the power to grant 'unalienable rights' must have been the United States Government.
Apparently, the 'Powers' that are granted to the United States Government in the Constitution are so confusing and misunderstood, that the 10th Amendment has to be drafted and ratified, which LITERALLY declares that ANY power that the government has not been specifically granted, has not been specifically granted. The Founding Fathers spend years and years discussing, deciding, and painstakingly specifying all of the exact wording for the specific powers that the Federal Government would be allowed to have, and the wordsmiths and the lawyers spend countless hours writing and rewriting the articles to make absolutely sure that there is no room for misunderstanding. After carefully reading and re-reading what must have been stacks and stacks of legal papers, I guess someone must have asked "But we still get to do whatever we want, right?".
Now, at some point, somebody decided that maybe Slavery isn't the BEST way to express the 'equality' that we're all supposed to share. What is the result? "Our bad" - the 13th Amendment declares Slavery illegal and abolishes all involuntary human servitude. One thing, though - the Government doesn't bother to enforce this 'Equal Rights' measure, and Slavery continues for many Blacks (and others) in America for a long time to come. The Amendment does not, however, make ALL Slavery illegal - the Government is still allowed to own slaves as 'Punishment for crimes". I guess Slavery is only morally wrong sometimes.
While Slavery was abolished in 1865, the United States Government doesn't officially recognize Black People as 'human beings' until 1866. Three years later, these newly-appointed 'human beings' are 'granted' the right to vote (because the 'right' to vote was apparently excluded from 'Equal Rights') by the 15th Amendment (Whatever happened to those 'self-evident' rights?). Even with this legal and binding admission of guilt by the all-white United States Government, it would be 95 years before Blacks are actually allowed to exercise these rights.
The Civil Rights Act of 1866 is enacted which declares that everyone born in the United States is an American Citizen, "without regard to race, color, or previous condition of slavery or involuntary servitude". However, apparently nobody notices these sudden new rights, because in 1868 the 14th Amendment is enacted in order to protect the rights of white Males to vote, which implies that 'white males rights' must have been in mortal danger, a circumstance that I tend to find highly suspect. To confuse matters even further, it also declares that anyone born in the United States is considered an American Citizen (does duplication of a law mean that you really, really mean it?).
So now, by 1870 we have legally declared to the entire nation that everyone has the exact same 'self-evident' rights as everyone else. By 'everyone', of course, they mean 'white males'. Blacks, Indians and Women are actively and aggressively prevented from exercising these 'rights' by contradictory laws, corrupt Government officials, and continued local racist and discriminatory policies. Of course, the 12th Amendment ratified in 1804 effectively obsoletes voting rights anyway due to the Electoral College system, so any and all 'Voting Rights' movements from this point on are, effectively, meaningless.
In 1920, the United States Government finally deigns to add one more group to the accepted list of 'human beings' who have 'inalienable rights' - Women are 'granted' the right to vote by the 19th Amendment. "The right of citizens of the United States to vote shall not be denied or abridged by the United States or by any State on account of sex." This would imply that, until now, the government has legally and rightfully had the power to 'deny or abridge the right of citizens of the United States to vote on account of sex'. Of course, the existing Constitution and its Amendments grant NO SUCH POWER, and the 10th Amendment specifically PROHIBITS the Federal Government from exercising powers that had not been granted it, but I guess people must still have been confused by the explicitly written and specifically-granted powers.
So, to summarize our history up to this point, white male British Settlers tell the Colonists that we are all equals, and they declare war on the 'tyrannical British Crown'. The United States Government is created and granted very limited and specific powers, and the Government declares that we are all equals. Elections and voting are taken from the hands of the Citizens and placed in the Electoral College, and the Government declares that we are all equals. Slavery is abolished (well, not really), and the Government declares that we are all equals. Blacks are elevated to 'human being' status, and the Government declares that we are all equals. Blacks aren't satisfied with freedom and 'equal rights' and they demand the right to vote as citizens of the United States. The Government declares that we are all equals. The Constitution is amended (for the 19th time) to elevate Women to an equal status with Men, and everyone is told that we are all equals.
Blacks, almost a hundred years after being granted 'equal rights', are finally allowed to vote, drink from water fountains, and ride in the front seats of buses. The Government declares that we are all equals.
A note - I find it extremely frustrating that the 18th Amendment, the Prohibition of Alcohol, was on the books before women were even allowed to vote - It was more important to the US to demonize one of the oldest food products in the history of the world than it was to extend our 'unalienable equal rights' to women.

To begin, I'm a 25M living with a 26F. We've been together for four years; living together for three years.
I have my degree and have been working. She had been working to save enough to finish her degree (she has her associates). Well, to finish quickly, she decided to go full-time. She tried to work and do school full-time but there aren't enough hours in the day so we agreed that she will pay the bills as she can and during the summer and breaks she will work extra and spend it all on catching up on bills.
It's spring now and she is finishing up the spring semester before summer break. I went to pay the bills today and logged onto Venmo to request the bills and noticed that many of my old rent and bill requests were gone. Like I could scroll through my entire list of pending requests and they're not there. The weird part is I can see random requests from that period but the expensive requests (rent, wifi, electric, etc) are gone.
My girlfriend is out for the weekend so I'm left here wondering what's up. She had been stressing about school and money. A lot of our issues have been money-related but we have been trying to hold strong until summer break. This year was an experiment and we knew we would make adjustments for her final year.
Well, everyone deserves some happiness and release from stress so she is shopping this weekend. Nothing crazy. She deserves to spend money on herself but now I'm overthinking... so over $4,000 in requests get canceled and now she is having a fun girl's trip.
My attitude started to shift a little. I thought back to when we first met (I was helping her move out of her abusive ex's place via a mutual friend) and she "stole" all their mutual belongings because he cheated on her repeatedly. It's also worth noting I suffer from anxiety disorders so my brain was making the wrong connections. Now I'm thinking she might be planning on stealing from me and planning on leaving me. Our lease ends at the same time her semester ends. I'm out over $4,000. She's having fun with her friends and things with us have already been tense recently.
I overthink and I drop her a text roughly saying, "I don't want to blame you but I can't change the facts. You've canceled over $4,000 in bills. You've been stressing over money until this trip. These requests were just on Venmo a month ago. I can't believe you would do this... blah blah blah"
She calls and responds confused and, honestly, offended. She explains that she loves me, she would never do that and that I was the one who initially offered to let her pay the bills later so she could go to school full-time. We bicker and I ask her to explain Venmo and she says she can't and doesn't know why it's saying that. Eventually, she says we can talk about it when she gets home and says she will pay as many of the current requests as she can right now.
She pays them and I get the notifications, and when I open Venmo.... now all of those old "canceled" requests are showing. It turns out Venmo just doesn't show you your old pending requests if you have too many pending. You can't click "show more". It doesn't state you even have more pending requests. The only way to see them is to have people complete the most recent requests to provide space to list the old requests.
I instantly call back and apologize profusely. She is rightfully annoyed at having her integrity questioned and said I should have known she wouldn't do that. Honestly, I should have known but it seemed like the facts were plainly stated. I totally fucked up here.
TL;DR Venmo has an outdated layout and UI, making it so users can't see old pending requests if they have too many pending requests to display. I wrongly assumed my girlfriend canceled her old requests to get out of paying bills (because I don't get notified if someone cancels a payment request). Now, she is rightfully offended and upset.

A friend and I have been trying to play, both on PC through Steam with him hosting. We load into the dropship hangar just fine, start a mission fine, but then after the loading screen with the two green mechs I get stuck on a black screen with the load icon rotating in the corner. After googling and finding a thread in this subreddit about a similar issue posted 2 years ago about this being a issue with snow maps, I read some of the comments out loud to him and he immediately said "yeah this is a snow map". We moved systems and tried a different mission on a different snow map, same issue. Moved systems again tried a forest map, still the same issue. But as soon as he quits the mission, my game loads back into the hangar with 0 issues, except for the one listed below.
On a side note, we also ran into a issue where while in the hangar, the collision for the mechs in the bays is functional but the mechs are invisible to me.
​
Mods we are using:
- TTRulez_AIMod2
- Alternate PGI Crosshairs with Targeting Line
- Yet Another Weapon Clan
- Yet Another Mechlab
- Yet Another Weapon
- Infantry_No_Color
- NoTonnageLimit
​
Link to the older post in this sub:
https://www.reddit.com/Mechwarrior5/comments/np7opu/infinite_loading_in_coop_as_nonhost_xbox_one/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=web2x&context=3

I know in most things im wrong and I'm not perfect, but I don't know how to talk with new people without being afraid or getting hurt and it's driving me insane.
Last year I met some people that used me and insulted me and I used to just feel sorry for them, to excuse they behaviors and to give myself the fault. I know it's completely wrong and it took me a long time to realize it.
I ended up being really attached to these people, I didn't want to let them go no matter the abuses. After a year i found some people that helped me get out of all that and now I'm still trying to get over it.
Since then I have been paranoid every time I meet new people because I think that I'm gonna find new assholes that want to use me and I won't notice it. And infact it happend again.
Found a new guy, he started to text me, he was strange at first and I had a bad feeling but I ignored it and told myself that I was just being paranoid and that he was a good person. Obviously those bad feelings were right.
He started to get upset if I didn't text him for a day or two, and I was always the first one to write or he wouldn't say a word. At the very start of our friendship he said that I was going to leave him at some point because everyone does (fun fact: I didn't end the friendship but he did).
I'm a very curious person so I ask a lot of questions, that he didn't like because one day he started to say that I was being "strange" and to emphasize the fact that "he is in a relationship". I wasn't trying to flirt with him and I'm still wondering if I gave him the wrong vibes.
In the end I asked a question, he got all suspicious about it and before I had the time to answer, he blocked me on every social media. I tryed to text him and understand if I did something wrong but he just said that I'm dumb, I'm trash, that I don't understand things, that asking why he blocked me is dumb because I should know it.
After that I just stopped texting but his words hit me deep and I can't get them out of my head because I don't know what I did wrong. I was just trying to be a good friend, to be there for him even if he wasn't there for me when I needed him.
I know this is all dumb and I should get over it but his word are stuck in my head now, and it all makes me think about the people from the past that I still can't get out of my head. I feel so crazy right now.
Some people told me that I should go to therapy but because of some personal reasons I can't, so I'm trying to deal with everything alone. But since I met those people from the past I changed. I feel like one of my walls was broken and now everything can get in and out, attack me and hurt me and I don't have the strength to stop it every time. I really don't know what to do anymore.

Hi all! First time posting. Help is appreciated.
I’m replacing a bathtub/shower combo with a friend. It’s been a long educational ride so far.
We installed the mixer, shower head, drain… but the faucet we bought is broken. I am in the process of getting a replacement. Until then, we’ve capped off the faucet pipe.
However, a trickle of water will not stop coming out of the shower head (actually just the pipe, as the shower head hasn’t been attached yet). It’s been a couple hours. We noticed that when the cap is removed from the faucet pipe, the shower head pipe trickle stops.
I’m not looking for a solution, but understanding of what is going on. The water at the mixer is turned off. I am assuming the mixer isn’t leaking?
Also, when I cover the shower head pipe with my thumb, pressure builds pretty quickly. I don’t understand where that pressure is coming from.
We’re thinking that the capped faucet pipe is part of the problem? Thoughts?
Any harm in letting it drip? It’s been going a couple hours, but it might be days before I get a new faucet.
Any insight would be awesome.

TW: Sexual, physical, emotional abuse and self harm/suicide
I was diagnosed with depression my entire life. Depression was never a big deal to me. I never thought it wasn't a thing but being miserable, it was just the "norm" for me. And thus, depression was just another day and you either "got over it" or was "weak."
When my doctor told me I was bipolar. I hated it. I hated her and I hated myself most of all. I went home and cried in the shower, and then the anger came in. I wanted so badly to hurt myself, to punish myself for this. And then the guilt and disgust set in. The disgust over what the pills I picked up represented. The mood stabilizers were an insult to me. An insult to my control over myself. But even worse, a reminder that I was broken.
I never hid depression diagnosis from my doctors, therapists, etc. But I never "acted" depressed. That was stupid in my head. You went out into the world everyday acting cheerful and friendly because that was the right thing to do. I scoffed at my friends saying to me "I'm too depressed today" and mocked my friend while he was going through a really hard time. To me, it was laziness and pathetic that they couldn't just force themselves to get things done or go to work. I did this last year and saw how much I damaged our friendship. I ended up apologizing to him in the end.
I learned to shut up quickly as a child. I was sexually assaulted at age of 10/11 by my grandmother's partner and all that happened was a slap on the wrist. From then on, I was forced to sit there at the kitchen table and be respectful towards him to "keep the peace." He would continue to make comments about my body when I would end up alone with him, but I never spoke up again.
My mother got into drugs when I was quite young and often had child protective services at the door. She would threaten me so I would lie to them. If I didn't like to them, she told me I would be put in a foster home where I would be raped and beaten.
I eventually moved away from my mother and started living with my grandfather. I would often spend all summer with him and my babysitter was emotionally abusive and had him on her side. I couldn't stand being with my mother so I chose the least worse option. Sometimes I would make a comment, that wasn't meant to be mean, she would start crying to him and he would tell me to learn how to be nice. To learn how to keep things to myself. She offered to take me on a trip and my grandfather approved. It was fine until the trip back. I can't remember what she said to me anymore, but I can remember how trapped I felt. In a car, miles away from home, trying not to show any reaction to what she was saying until I couldn't anymore and ended up bursting into tears. When that happened, she started crying and blaming me for manipulating and hurting her.
When I look back, I can't help but hate myself in all those situations. I blame myself for being weak. I know it isn't rational. Nor was my reaction to this diagnosis or these new meds. I can't bring myself to take these meds and accept that I'm really just some fucked up, mentally ill person and can't ever change that. I'd rather destroy my life entirely by cut out my doctor, therapists, etc and never look back. I feel physically sick looking at these meds and had to put them out of my sight.
My grandfather called me and told me my cat got put down. I didn't really react to that, maybe I'm some sort of psycho too, but I feel almost jealous. I've always told people I would rather be put down before I get hospitalized. I wish I could have that option, to point to this and say "I'm too sick, can you just put me to sleep?" but that option doesn't exist. I can shove pills down my throat to keep everyone around me happy until I finally die.

I have several examples of catching my wife doing this unintentionally.
I was showing my wife a TikTok video of a girl trying to squirt water in her friends mouth with a squirt gun. As a man child I told her that’s what girls look like when they are waiting for a guy to cum on their face. Without thinking about “no it doesn’t you do it like this” tilts her head back, opens her mouth, sticks out her tongue, then you her eyes look straight up. I said wow looks like someone had done that a few times before and she started cracking up. Woops.

Day 1 - 2x keto shakes, 4 hard boiled eggs, 2 pork chops (4Oz ea) Total Calories 1418, Carbs 16 Day 2 - 3x Pork, 4 Egg Yolks, Blue cheese salad (Out to dinner with family, No croutons or tomatos) 1960 calories, 20 carbs Day 3 - 1 slim fast keto bar, 8 plain baked chicken wings, No sauce. 830 calories, 2 carbs Day 4 - 1 Slim fast keto bar, 8 plain baked chicken wings, No sauce. 830 calories, 2 carbs Day 5 - 2 chicken breast, Keto friendly blue cheese (Toby's keto friendly blue cheese) 1 Keto shake. Calories 1350, 10 carbs Day 6 - 4 plain sausage patties, 1 keto shake, 2 sausages for dinner - 1350 calories, 8 carbs Day 7 - Slim fast bar, 4 Sausages, 2 atkins almond bars, 2 seaweed snack things - 1260 calories 7 Carbs
I know it's a lot of info but I'm really trying to get this to work. I don't feel any different besides some bathroom changes (more frequent and not solid, trying not to sound gross) but other than that that's it. I don't feel incredibly hungry, no dry mouth, no nausea, basically none of the signs I've read about how to tell when you enter ketosis. Judging from my food choices and calories / carbs listed above, can anyone see anything that would be keeping me out? Or is it fine so far and just keep going? I guess i'm just confused if I'm doing something wrong so any tips would help.